hard time

haiz. now a days.. no money no talk man ..

wht also money . this money that money..

i want earn money. i wan like my friends.. wan money got money use..

go clubing, go whtever place also can.. nonid alawys see money .. haiz...

y ?? money so important ??

does money really effect of people? friend? or even love?

does love really see money ?? or truely from hearts ?? no matter u rich or poor ??

haiz.. people always said, life is full with colourful.. i don think so..

life is full with pain... well i guess.. i am part of the person who is having this kinda situation..

wht my friend told me is true.. don always seek for things.. the more u do, the harder u get and the more suffer u gets... well always follow its flow..

i think i gonna start doing it.. follow its flow. especially love life..

i feel damn tired already, damn sad already.. well i guess i gonna just follow its flow ba..

if mine , til end wil be mine. nonid go chase.. haiz..

GOD says true also.. don chase, is useless.. no 1 wil likes me.. haiz..

well now i guess i understands that word le..

why ? why i need spend so hard time to chase ppl ?? haiz.. chase le ? til whn ?? stil the same i guess....

i really feel meaningless now a days le.. No more game, No more happiness, No more care, No more love, whtever also don hav. now i only hav is ? pain, suffer, working, studies...

well, people always said i desprate for gf? why ? why? is been how many years? i wants to find a person who really loves me care about me got wrong? did i ever play their feeling ?? do i ?? i can stand up and said it out loud, I NVR played people's feeling before.. i nvr wants that happen in my love life..

how could u all don understand me haiz.... i guess whtever i said now in this blog , all ppl will thinks that " u see that rickson, starts those grandmother stody, saying how cham he is, always like to show off and BLA BLA BLA .. "

well , i just can say something, is ok.. say whtever u all wants , i don care.... i just wanted to express my feelings.... sinces i don hav much friends that i could really realy spend time and chat. most of it is going overseas or even working studying hard.. haiz... well

i guess i stop here ba....