How to stop missing some1 that u deeply love to,

how to really stop missing some1 that really deeply love to.
i really wanted to know about this. each saturday i went down to klang to have my piano lesson - -! i cant stop recalling back wht we hav done in previous time.

i am sad, i started to be emo already !!
why, really why, i already face the fact that she already don't likes me. but y, i cant even forget about this. i am trying ok ? i nvr said i cant, but i keep trying.

each time i saw the road, i saw the shop loot,it really keeps on reminding me the previous stuff T_T

can any1 know how to stop this kinda stuff? hmm.. i am still wondering too..
haiz.. i know u all will be said, all this kinda problem, is me ,my self who cause it. and cant blame others ppl. haiz. i also know T_T i just wanted to forget it, don want to think of it. T_T

why is that so hard ?? to stop missing some1 that don even likes u and care wht u are doing = =!
why. this keeps poping out my mind = =!! why i cant stop thinking??
when ever i am alone, or i stop doing somethin else? this question will be poping out my mind.

i guess now u are a happy girl in the world. i hope that u can enjoy all ur best. well u are enjoying ba. haiz..

well i don know wht i should do la. thinking of this stuff over and over again. each saturday and know whT??

TODAY this saturday,8-11-2009 afternoon, was thinking and thinking the way back from klang = =! missing her haiz..

when comes to sunway the bridge was slowly stopp because car infront stop,

THN = =!! BEHIND , A MEZZZZZZ BANG ME... i was like WHT THE FUCK ?? CANT SEE WHILEI BREAK ?? !#@*$^&*@#^$&*@#$, walao , the car was jus repair not long ago and yet got bang again?

when i came down , i saw a couple of malays = =!! walked out. and i am thinking wah.. MEZZZ le = =!! and my car bonnet = =!! again, same thing happen == !!comming out = = swt ..

bt this time at least the colours is stil there = =! but the bonnet already bengkok la, and the top there also comes out le = =!

then i called my mom, and suddenly got scolded for nth = =!
do i make mistake ? i don think so ? why should i got scolded = =! wht should i got blammed that when i drive her car yet again got accident again = =!

is not my fault ok ? i listen wht u told me ? stop the car don so near keep distence.. and now = =!! i keep distence, yet behind bang me = =!
MOM tell me, who's fault now = =!! why i got blamed = =! WHY WHY...

do u think that i wan all this stuff to happen ? HAR?? answer me !!!!
i already sad and emo yet this stuff happen to me!!

i know i am stupid in everything, don hav to scold me 1 ma = =! cant slowly say ma?? = =! haiz.. waited there for almost 30minutes and the couples decided to go puchong and check out the price of repairing the bonnet = =!

i hope my parents can sattle it down peacefully..haiz..

well.. that all i want.. i already hav no mood for the performence tomoro la haiz..

well that all i wanna say now = =!!

i wish , i wish that i could find some1 who really cares about me love me. just a bit, i already happy. don have to put so much effort on me. u just gives some and thats enough, and u sit there and recieve it alll and everythin from me..

this wht i wish for, and tries to appriciate it. T_T

haiz.. that all ..

end of story = =!!